Hey Everyone,
I am sure that you all have been wondering where I've been. Well I have some very very bad news. Besides not being able to get on the internet there for a while after Christmas, I had something happen to me or you could say "us" that has changed my life forever.
My sweet dear husband, Jose, passed away on the 12th of this month right before my birthday on the 13th. We had his funeral on the 15th. Yesterday was the first day I've even looked at the computer. I'm just beside myself feeling like this is all a really bad dream. I just can't seem to wake up from it.
After Christmas we caught a cold or that's what I thought it was. I got better and he didn't. He just kept getting worse. On the Saturday before what happened I begged him not to go to work because he was just so tired. I had just gotten him on my insurance and told him we could go to the doctor. He hated spending money. He kept saying he was ok. I made him take his phone to call me when he got to work and when he called he told me they were taking him to the emergency room. I got to the hospital at 3pm and they had oxygen hooked up to him and he was awake at that time. They send him to the ICU where I could only see him for 30 minutes on the even hours. They took him up there at 8:15 pm and then I had to leave him. He wanted me to go home get some rest and be back in the morning early. But I didn't. I went home got my phone charger and a few odds and ends. By the time I got back and saw him at 10pm he was out of it and I never got to talk to him again. They ended up intibating him (a tube down his throat) and told me he had pneumonia. Later they said it was N1H1 and then send me down to get checked too because I had been coughing. They finally said I was fine and that my lungs were good. His weren't though. THey had to take some of the fluid out of his. Then they finally told me it wasn't N1H1 and that it was influenza A.
We were in the hospital from Sat thru Tues morning and I guess his body finally gave out. I held his hand when they turned off the machines. I'm sorry this is so bad but this is what happened and I need to get it out. The rest had been just a bad dream that I can't wake from.
I just wanted you all to know what I'm going thru. It's really hard. Today is the first time that I'm staying alone in my house. So its going to be a little hard. I'm just hoping everything will eventually work out with the insurance and everything. I may end up loosing our beautiful truck. And my little puppies Shaylee and JoJo are all moping around the house. I think they keep looking for him to come home. It's so heart-breaking.
But I have really good friends and family that are helping me. They are all keeping me strong. At least I hope so. My puppies are helping too. It's just so unreal right now. So just bear with me. If I get too sad I'm sorry. I had so many photos I wanted to scrap and share with you and now it just doesn't feel right. I miss him so much.
Thank you all for listening/reading.
Love
April
I am sure that you all have been wondering where I've been. Well I have some very very bad news. Besides not being able to get on the internet there for a while after Christmas, I had something happen to me or you could say "us" that has changed my life forever.
My sweet dear husband, Jose, passed away on the 12th of this month right before my birthday on the 13th. We had his funeral on the 15th. Yesterday was the first day I've even looked at the computer. I'm just beside myself feeling like this is all a really bad dream. I just can't seem to wake up from it.
After Christmas we caught a cold or that's what I thought it was. I got better and he didn't. He just kept getting worse. On the Saturday before what happened I begged him not to go to work because he was just so tired. I had just gotten him on my insurance and told him we could go to the doctor. He hated spending money. He kept saying he was ok. I made him take his phone to call me when he got to work and when he called he told me they were taking him to the emergency room. I got to the hospital at 3pm and they had oxygen hooked up to him and he was awake at that time. They send him to the ICU where I could only see him for 30 minutes on the even hours. They took him up there at 8:15 pm and then I had to leave him. He wanted me to go home get some rest and be back in the morning early. But I didn't. I went home got my phone charger and a few odds and ends. By the time I got back and saw him at 10pm he was out of it and I never got to talk to him again. They ended up intibating him (a tube down his throat) and told me he had pneumonia. Later they said it was N1H1 and then send me down to get checked too because I had been coughing. They finally said I was fine and that my lungs were good. His weren't though. THey had to take some of the fluid out of his. Then they finally told me it wasn't N1H1 and that it was influenza A.
We were in the hospital from Sat thru Tues morning and I guess his body finally gave out. I held his hand when they turned off the machines. I'm sorry this is so bad but this is what happened and I need to get it out. The rest had been just a bad dream that I can't wake from.
I just wanted you all to know what I'm going thru. It's really hard. Today is the first time that I'm staying alone in my house. So its going to be a little hard. I'm just hoping everything will eventually work out with the insurance and everything. I may end up loosing our beautiful truck. And my little puppies Shaylee and JoJo are all moping around the house. I think they keep looking for him to come home. It's so heart-breaking.
But I have really good friends and family that are helping me. They are all keeping me strong. At least I hope so. My puppies are helping too. It's just so unreal right now. So just bear with me. If I get too sad I'm sorry. I had so many photos I wanted to scrap and share with you and now it just doesn't feel right. I miss him so much.
Thank you all for listening/reading.
Love
April
7 comments:
Oh April..I don't know you but your story is breaking my heart right now. Please know that I am truley sorry for your loss... *hugs*
I am so sorry! I follow your blog as I have time but I do remember after you got married, you offered the Seashore Wedding kit and I jumped in a bought it. You had done such a wonderful job scrapping your own wedding with that kit that you sold me on it. Each time I use a part of that kit, I think of you. My heart feels for you and I hope the pain of this tragedy diminishes quickly and you can look back on the fun times you had together. Again, I am so sorry.
Hi April, sorry to hear about the sudden loss of your husband, maybe scrapping the memories will help ease the pain.
hugs
Sue
Oh April, I know how hard it was for you to write all of this, but I am so glad you did. You know that I love you and that I'm here anytime you need to talk.
April, I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm here also if you need to talk. Time does help with the pain.
Hugs,
Nita
I'm so very sorry for the loss of your husband. Sending you deepest condolences.
April
I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my prayers.
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